i want to be raw.. i want to be vulnerable..

I wish i could show you the video of the dance i did w 3 others in CF today. I didn't expect it to have such a real impact on me. I guess i really had nothing to prove and without realizing, my four walls must have dropped; within the short span of those very minutes as the crackling playback of the music began.

what do you do when things don't go as planned?
when you're caught off guard but have to carry on in that instant?

well, today was definitely a day i'll never forget. for more reasons than one :)
it was the day i managed to break down.. on cue, on stage, without having planned it before hand.

the day i stepped into the unknown, the adventure, the crazy..

the day i said.. "hey, i'm coming along so you better be leaving a space for me!"

well, it's just 'a day'.. any ordinary day.. but on this very day, i chose different choices
some that I wouldn't otherwise have made on 'any ordinary day'..
most situations that wouldn't just occur on "just-another-person's ordinary day-planner"

why?
'cause we were never made to be
generically labelled
'GENERIC'
~jft